An Ode to Math, Leisure, and God

A math mystery;
   No one able to solve it.

My mind stuck;
   I’m unable to solve it.

Try this and try that;
   Still stuck as before.

Sit still and breathe;
   The mystery doesn’t budge.

Read what others already know;
   Lean on what I already know.

The knowledge known brings up
   The same math mystery; stuck.

Eat lunch and do chores;
   Listen to music – a new perspective hits!

Sit down and write;
   The math mystery is budging.

Juggle ideas – those that support;
   Those that contradict.

Write some more and –
   Mystery solved!

The answer was waiting;
   I just needed to change my perspective.

Joy, relief,
   And then more questions arise.
   Math mysteries for another time.

This is leisure.

A tragedy;
   No one able to make sense of it.

God, why would You allow this?
   I’m unable to make sense of it.

Justify this and counteract that;
   God, why would You allow this?

Sit still, breathe, pray; God, if You’re good,
   Why would You allow this?

Read the Word, listen to others;
   God, I know You’re good.

The mystery remains;
   God, why would You allow this?

Eat lunch and do chores;
   Life goes on – a new perspective hits!

Sit down in awe;
   God, You are doing something in me.

Juggle ideas – those that support;
   Those that contradict.

Pray some more and –
   God, I see what You want me to see.

God, You never left me; You remain unchanged.
   I just needed to change my perspective.

Joy, worship,
   And questions remain.
   Answers God may provide for another day.

This is knowing God more.